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youkojin
14 September 2010 @ 05:04 pm
 so i already spent 1 week of my two weeks vacation here at home, and it has been very very busy. even now i still have a lot of friends to meet up with! 

one of my realizations during this vacation is that it really is better when you can fangirl with others. it's more fun talking about your idols with other fans than just watching them by yourself. 

oh well, that's a short head's up of what i've been up to. i dont really get to update this lj anymore but i'm still here, lurking about.

p.s. nino drama theme song as arashi single to be released nov3? okaneganaiyo~
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youkojin
10 August 2010 @ 12:37 am
Dear You,

I will admit that sometimes I really do wonder if you exist.

There is a part of every little girl’s heart that envisions her prince charming. At age three, it is usually of a man who can save her from the wrath of an evil stepmother, wake her from eternal slumber or give her that true love’s kiss.

In elementary school, he becomes the boy with the least cooties, the one who’s willing to cross the playground to share his Oreos even if it makes him a target for the week of all the other boys.

Come high school, it’s that boy you stand with at prom, who your father stared down at the door, who provided you with an experience complete with photos you will cringe at a decade later, a corsage that yellows in the refrigerator, and a faded memory of a night that seemed almost too magical to be real.

Nineteen years into this life, however, and still unwilling to give my heart away, I am still that same little girl who hopes for her prince charming. And although I wonder why it has taken you this long to sweep me off my feet and whisk me off to your palace on horseback, I know that it is probably because meeting you will be better than any fairytale I could’ve read as a kid.

A couple of heartbreaks and a few years wiser though, I will admit that there are times when I question your existence. Because I have yet to meet the guy who makes me hear songs like “All My Life” or “A Whole New World” in my head when I see him does not mean I don’t hope that it’ll ever happen.

I may already know you or may still meet you someday—something I leave completely up to God because I’m pretty sure our story will be epic.

However, I can’t promise you that I’d make the world’s most perfect princess. In fact I’ll probably keep you on your toes and amuse you with my eccentricities—there are a lot of them. I’ll probably steal a bunch of your T-shirts and turn them into shirt dresses, or drive you slightly mad with my obsessive compulsivity and my need to fix your collar constantly.

I can promise to be your best friend however—that person you can rant to after a rough day, the hand you can hold when you get sad, or the person you can text when situations get awkward.

I’ll probably mess up your hair sometimes and hug you for too long, but that’ll only be because I absolutely adore you. I’ll bury my head in your shoulder during scary movies and make you feel like superman when you kill those flying cockroaches that really shouldn’t exist. I’ll cook your favorite food on your birthday and try my best to make friends with your mom.

I’ll respect your nights-out with the boys and make you seem like the perfect guy to my barkada. I’ll watch basketball or soccer games with you, and not complain when you cheer too loudly at the TV set.

I’ll know the difference between giving you space and being constantly there for you—even if it means sitting and playing video games with you or taking hot chocolate runs when it rains.

I’ll listen to your music and we’ll go on epic adventures together—seeing the world, taking awesome pictures, eating awesome food, and never running out of things to tell each other along the way.

I won’t be waiting for you to sweep me off my feet and take me on a magic carpet ride, because I know I won’t need anything like that to fall for you—I will love you for you.

You will be that someone to make goofy faces with in pictures, to lace fingers with when I’m lonely, and to take long walks under the stars with on the beach.

You’ll be the guy who takes me the way I am—and will laugh as I burst into Disney song or pick out pink wallpaper.

You’ll be that someone I envision a future with—us filling out visa forms as we travel the universe, picking out our first dog together and arguing about what to name it, or being snap-happy stage parents in our preschooler’s annual mini-plays. And I keep hoping that maybe someday when we find each other, you will become that someone whose smile I wake up to in the morning and the last one I speak to every night.

So to the man I know does exist, and who will help me maybe make sense of the world someday, this man I can’t wait to love. Please know that I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you. But for now, I wait. Fingers crossed and palms held together, I hope that you’re out there somewhere, waiting for me, too.

With the hope I will be yours for always,

Me

Not my own.
Author is cathybabao@ gmail.com 's daughter.
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youkojin
09 June 2010 @ 11:35 pm
end for me? not. that im wishing for it to end. just thinking of the possibilities.

browsed through yuckie-chan's lj and saw her recent comments. i don't know but it makes me sad to see people who were so "into" the fandom before but now are not that "into" the fandom anymore. i'm also seeing less posts from people of my "generation" of fans. i miss the old forums, the old mods, the old subbers and translators and people who were so enthusiastic in sharing arashi to the world. i miss the flailings over the small things like hair cuts and interview answers and music station talk hypes. i miss the old arashi, the 9th priority group out of all the JE groups (before HSJ).

it's been more than three years since i entered the fandom and im glad that in those three years arashi's career grew by leaps and bounds. as they become more busy, i think "we" also got more busy with real life. catching the headlines is enough nowadays, whereas before i needed to know every little bit of information. knowing that i got a copy of the single is enough, whereas before i print every song's lyrics and sing the songs nonstop.

i dont know, im probably being selfish, but im getting suffocated by the crowd. i wish i can still see the small group of fans who really developed great friendship over the common ground that is arashi. 

nah. being alone really gets one thinking deshou? maybe im just extra sleepy and tired tonight. 
 
 
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youkojin
From this article:

The top 10 songs to battle May sickness are:

1. Happiness by Arashi
2. Joyful by Ikimonogakari
3. Troublemaker by Arashi
4. Kibun Joujou by MihimaruGT
5. Gutz da ze!! by Ulfuls
6. Suirenka by Shonan no Kaze
7. Ogon Soul by Shonan no Kaze
8. Kitto Daijoubu by Arashi
9. weeek by NEWS
10. Gold by UVERworld

Just this Friday in class our sensei, when she noticed that everyone looks very tired, explained to us that we may be experiencing what Japanese calls the May Sickness. April is the start of the fiscal year in Japan, a new year for schools and companies, and you know how worked up Japanese people get during the start of anything. After 1 month of working very hard, during the month of May they start to feel tired and lethargic, and then in June people feels energetic again.

In this survey, they asked more than 1000 respondents what song they listen to to battle the May sickness. Yay for Arashi, they got 3 songs in the top 10! I so agree with Happiness, I also listen to this to get my mood up! Troublemaker and Kitto Daijoubu are upbeat songs, too, and they certainly makes me feel more genki. And I'm glad NEWS' weeek got in there, too. weeek was my wake-up alarm tone once, and hearing it in the morning makes me feel ready for the day. XD

Since it's still May, I should listen to these songs more to get my energy UP! UP! UP! XD
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Current Location: Suita HQ
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youkojin
18 February 2010 @ 02:23 am
i remember that it was around february to march three years ago when i started getting really interested in arashi. to be more accurate, it was around that time when i started downloading their songs and videos. by april, i chose an on-the-job training in school because it is a collaboration between our school and Japan Radio Co. yes, there is that "Japan" word so i chose it. april to may was when i discovered the fast internet connection in the research labs, unlike the slow connections in the openlabs. it made downloading all the more easier and fun. needless to say, i stayed in that lab for my thesis and spent my last year in college mostly downloading everything i can about arashi (and doing my thesis on the side XD). in my first year of arashi obsession, i was also able to make fans out of my two thesis-mates.

Click the cut to know more about my personal journey as an arashi fan. But please be warned that it's quite long. A summary is in the paragraph below this cut.Collapse )

in retrospect, i'm glad that for the past three years i have been steadily moving forward. it's nice to know that arashi is part of the force that's pushing me on. it's a fandom that i'm proud of, and i hope that i can be a part of it for still many years to come.

p.s. to my cousins and sister - please don't tell my parents that i'm doing all this 'studying' because of arashi. as i said, arashi is just "part of it" ^_~
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youkojin
it's really no secret that a lot of dramas suffer from low ratings, or at least, dramas nowadays don't reach the kind of rating that they could have achieved had they aired maybe 5-10 years ago. what's more disturbing is the fact that JE-starred dramas fail to rake in the expected viewership! i don't know what others may say, but i think tokujo kabachi's rating is low. and so is the ratings for yamanade. please don't think i'm bashing these two dramas, i'm definitely a fan, but i can't help but be disappointed by the ratings.

i have to admit, that even though sho also has a drama this season (tokujo kabachi), i looked forward more to the airing of yamato nadeshiko shichi henge. it is my favorite manga! sunako and kyohei are my favorite manga characters! and when it was announced that there will be a live action, a lot of manga fans expressed interest and excitement, too! the fact that it is a well-liked manga should have been enough to rake in the viewership, but 3 JE boys added to the attraction factor! the fans alone from the three groups (kattun, news, and kanjani8) should be enough to get high viewership ratings, but that is clearly not the case. i feel bad because i don't want yamanade to be a so-so drama with a so-so rating. i want it to be recognized as a good adaptation of the manga. i want it to be popular, if not as popular as the manga itself. but the ratings! T_T

i already said it in the title, i blame streaming sites for the low ratings. i specifically blame dramacrazy.net! i read in a kattun lj-comm post how some fans are actually proud that yamanade is the 2nd most watched drama in dramacrazy, out of the 800+ uploads there. is this really something to be proud of? i understand that a lot of fans don't really want the hassle of downloading so they just watch on streaming sites,  but making the raws readily available to everyone? raws uploaded just hours after the airing? if im a japanese, then there would be not much motivation for me to watch the drama on tv, right? i'll just think that i can watch it anytime, thanks to streaming sites like dramacrazy.net. why make the effort to go home to catch my favorite drama when i can watch it anytime when i go online? there goes the drama viewership ratings.

i know a lot of international fans depend on streaming sites to watch the dramas. after all, our options are limited. maybe it's ok to upload completed dramas, i don't know, but i think uploading raws especially when the drama is still airing will definitely contribute to low viewership ratings right? there may be a lot of loopholes in my argument and my opinions, but i'm presenting this view because i don't want the dramas to suffer from low ratings anymore.

just my two cents.
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youkojin
02 December 2009 @ 02:26 pm
kame as kyohei!!!! kyaaa~~~~~~~ XD

i'm sure irumi will like it, she likes kame and she loves wallflower.

as for me, well.. the dream of seeing ohno as sunako and the other four as the four bishonen was just crushed to pieces haha.

will definitely look forward to it. XD
 
 
youkojin
28 November 2009 @ 07:07 pm
Happy Birthday Ohno!!

I celebrated it in my own way. Of course with several other Arashi/Ohno fans. XD

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youkojin
30 October 2009 @ 01:13 pm
T_T  
 i cant keep up with ACW T_T
 
 
youkojin
22 September 2009 @ 07:08 pm
No.1 for Singles, Albums, and DVDs!! Yatta! I hope they will be able to sustain it until the end of the year. I can still contribute to the sales since I haven't bought the regular editions yet, but i need money! haha i've become so poor since i started buying arashi stuff. please bring back the time when i was still a happy fan who is already content when seeing their programs and downloading their songs and getting happy when they get good sales. T_T back then i only invest on time in the computer and internet connection, but now i just have to get an LE!

i wonder now how i can celebrate this milestone.. with a cake maybe? hmm.

congrats, arashi! XD
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